what do you feel you don&#x27;t deserve?

And it feels like i am almost near the failing line…. It’s not working out…. Nothing hurts more than realising u are going to fail very soon …. But then there’s this 1-2% of confidence asking me not to quit

My love for them

Just two days back.

Fathers don't say much. They rarely express what's going on in their hearts. But when they do speak, it's usually because they're proud of you... or because they're disappointed in you. And maybe that's why it hurts so much. Today, I realized my father is disappointed in me. He didn't shout. He didn't say anything harsh. But somehow, I could feel it in his words, in his silence, in the way he looked at me.

4..Idk if you will be reading this bt I'm sorry it got too long. I think I vented a bit too much. P.S - I am happy to see you flourish so much in life ( I genuinely am). From that little seedling who wanted to go in the medical line to an engineer today who is designing venting webpages to help others relieve their stress , I'm so very proud of you !! You definitely deserve this success after all the hardwork .. Keep it up!! I wish you all the world's happiness and success for years to come!

...3 Work life? Nothing different . It's the same freaking cycle... Got outcasted from my group bcz? I did not go on trips with them ( but I had my own personal reasons ), bcz I'm not well versed with their language and also bcz I hate gossiping like them ( I just don't hv that energy in me to indulge in meaningless topics ), I'm different as compared to them... I have got ambitions , lots , not like theirs - just getting married and having children , but still is that a valid reason to outcast?

....2 . I am someone who gets both attached and detached very easily. I like isolating myself , bcz I find it peaceful , but that doesn't mean that I hate people or company... I dont... In short an ambivert. I end up trusting ppl easily even if I try my best not to. The aftermath? Betrayal. My college life was the worst , ended up getting betrayed by that one single "friend" , who mattered the most to me. She moved on quick, but it took me two years to recover myself ( only just recently ) ...

I'm tired of being a goody two shoes, I just want to go ahead and slap the shit out of everybody who thinks that they can betray and discard me whenever they feel like it. I want to show my true face to them all , but I'm not being able to bcz that's not who I am by default... Even if I try my best , I can't be rude on people's face and then not regret about it for the rest of eternity. .... 1

1. Money , lots of money , to make myself , my close ones happy . 2. Lots of Power to take revenge on ppl who insulted me and my close ones , and also took me for granted 3. Love , ppl assume by my nature that I don't want it , but I want that someone who's got it bad for me, as I'm the only one who matters in their world . Someone , to whom I can run and give a huge hug to after a long day. It's quite lonely all by myself

Mostly myself , bcz of my godamnn miserable luck and ofc bcz of who I am

U were my favourite person, but somehow I could never be enough for you. U had your people, and maybe even if I left, you wouldn't notice my absence. I was always there for you, but when I needed you the most, you never saw how much I was hurting. You thought I became distant but the truth is..I was breaking. You just had to ask if I was okay. Being apart hurts, but I'll let you go now. Be happy. I truly wish you achieve everything u told me about.

My crush and I wore the same color ♥️

I really like him and can't tell him. Rn

He come close and go away . He have no idea how He causing me pain .Now I will also do the same . Come to him and go away. Abb dekh na maza

of not being able to achieve what i want.....failing at every last step before i reach my goal....so rn i am carrying self doubt

For giving someone multiple chances hoping they would change …..

But I wanted to make it work….. but things aren’t going as expected…. So should I quit?? But if I quit … how am I going to live with the regret of giving up ?

hhh

Trying to prove wrong to all of them who thought i can never make it in lyf

Sometimes i think why am i even working. I am all alone here 30hrs away from home. Not getting to see your loved once hurt....

You knew I loved you… you knew that u were everything to me, yet you chose to take advantage of my emotions. So are u happy now? You couldn’t love me back , u could have just said me instead giving me false hopes… i would have still loved u… but you chose to keep me invested in you , pretended u loved me but you were looking for other guys. Well played. The harm you did to me is irreversible but don’t do it to someone else who will truly love you.

Die

Want to meet that college senior dii once again ....like first time I saw her Well she doesn't know anything about me but after sometime I got to know that she already have a bf so I can't do anything and it's her last year in the college Well that meet was the first and last meet for me fir kbhi unse mulakat nhi hui but mei unhe social media pr stalk krta hu abhi bhi🙃

Getting Bored at work, pressure is much and am just pissed off. Telling myself everytime that it will be ok, but deep down I know it's not gonna be

First s*x is always special

My anxiety is really getting bad. I am not being able to sleep since few days. I just want to cry in front of someone so that i feel lighter… but then to whom shall i run to? I don’t wanna bother anyone but then this ain’t getting better for me

Loneliness 🙂

Of being born again

shuru ke 2-3 weeks of talking stage… jab har notification pe smile aa jaati thi aur mujhe lagta tha damn…. maybe this one’s different 🤡

Pain and loneliness

Honestly Speaking, experiencing college all over again for the first time would be great 😃

Had a bad day at work…

I did fall for you… but then you didn’t… and it does hurt sometimes

I don't know why this happening. Mujhe jinke sath rhna hy wo log mujse or dur ho rahe or jo log nhi chahiye I have to deal with them regularly.Its so hectic. I want a long vacation with my people.

Nothing

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I was good to them even when they played me

when i am nervous ... i start crying

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see yaaa

When nothing works leave it on God

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nothing much